Life's rule

Hey, good morning to all!
It has been a long period since i'd published my very last post on d...forgot already.
The phrase "NOTHING IS PERFECT" keep on banging in my head. I think i shall stick to the concept of that idea; i must stay humble, I can not differentiate whom i meet, see or chat with; i shall be clear with myself not to act out of my control (for an example: pretending to be 100% countable while inside of this honest but naughty self, im quite sure with what im doing).
By being truth to oneself or more, I did bumped onto a lot of people who were exactly I can call Mr. & Ms. Pretender. They were actually just wanna get some publicity unintentionally. Too bad for them as things are meaningless without telling @ showing the real thing (got what i mean?)
When people give out their question, others together with their sudden action may try to give the best shot by providing good answer, but at the same time they act uncontrollably without noticing how they do it.. ?? Bluurrr??..I bet you are. This is kinda average stage of a puzzle you need to settle up.. LoL
I try to think for another point to spread story from but i just couldnt help myself. Aiseh! Give me some time then..
Oyea..do you have any idea why out of sudden i post this plot today? Easy! A reason that anybody possibly be able to guess; 2 hours ago, I saw the sequence of event concerning the storyline above. A pair of my be-50/50-likes friends experiencing sorrow today. Eventhough previously they acted like tai-ka-jie; comes to a topic about the way they speak, eww..i feel like annoyed looking at them. As a matter of facts, things are like this..Nothing is prefect!

* soRrY bEll3*

Now i know! It's very annoying to realize the truth but that's the fact happened. I feel terrible discovering the person i trusted so much backbitting me. For about how many years this couple had been together, but yet still can not keep on making changes n trouble..
The moment i get to know the real stuff, i was broke into pieces. I want to ignore what i feel because i couldn't face the pain. He was so mean man!
I told my cousins the things i've suffered, from head to hair. She almost roll down her tears. She said that if she were me, she would not know what to do. She would probably have commit suicide. She said that she feel proud to see that im able to handle my problem indipendently. I also feel the same way to me, and i thank to the Lord how i appreciate the life @ attitude He gave me.
Too good to be true. I keep on thinking of that phrase. Makes me cry a river. I thought i know the person that i used to love, i thought i know how loyal he is to me, i thought i know everything about him and that he would never ever betray me. Look at me now? What had he done? It was actually a great terrible facing with feeling and heart matter. Not something people could simply ignore and let it be. But all i hope for me, myself is only a strong mental so that nothing bad could effect my life.
Even though my life is about a sad tale which probably may cause the readers cry, but im lucky to have such great @ best friend with me. They had always sorround me no matter what kind of situation im in.
I'd lost so many best thing since im together with the "demon". his beauty lips keep on producing sweet promises which actually a type of filthy animal's trick to trape their prey. So damn pathetic!
Huh..i dont want to think of all this stupid sad story anymore. Im sick of dealing tough critical moment. Im sick of acting and pretending. Sick of following others command. Im done!

JaBberwocky

You know what, i realize that life is like a jabberwocky. You create something to live on but at the end you find out that it is actually meaningless. After all, it's you, yourself who want it to be like that.
I have no guts to point something unbeneficial to anybody or me. But just to be frank, my freedome have never been good like these current particular days. Hehe..Lol..
Im going to end up things that terribly burdening my freedom. It's so call my "NIGHT JOB" that im talking about. Not to confuse the outside readers. (killin yourself for teriyaki and turn into sort of an a** h**e,but doesn't know what the hell that teriyaki thing is. Aiseh!)
I know I'll maybe going to miss this situation of having a really shitty tiredness ever. I suppose working day and night shall make me act out of my mind; mumbling idiot topic, getting more sleepy, less talk like i've done never before, become a truly ass hole infront of my sweetest friends and even more worst doin less chit chating with people around! Wow..moron. This isn't the way i do before taking part in the very cognition of vampire's life (clubbers is what im trying to say).
Have you guys ever heard of this song; "Angels" by WAX POETIC? Listening to this kind off soul song makes me feel blues..Yucks! Hate it so much. I feel like im in the 50's - 80's life. Uhuu..im so not into that dude. Anyway the big BBUUTT (BUT) here is, if I ever feel sad or isolate, suprisingly without hesitation, im kind off putting myself together with that in-blues rythm. Secretly (not telling the truth) it makes me feel like whole again (just joking and try to make it happen which will never be real).
So for the very end of this post, I would like to thanks myself for making me proud. Nevertheless,I hope n wish myself a very 100000000x ALL THE BEST & MAY GOD BLESS YOU. Life isn't bad at all. Only need a simplifier and some of love flavour, then it'll be better! MUAXX!! Cupp.. ;')

RaZ mA taZ

I wake up at 9pm, straightly go to take my bath. It's so terifying whenever the water that i pour started to run down my body. weew..what a shit! Just after i finish cleaning my entire body, i retransform to a clubbing girl for my so call night job. Please do not misunderstood me. It's not that im doing bitchy stuff, but to earn saving so that i can support myself. If somebody asking me whether i am really into this kind of work field, i would say that they're wrong. Actually, other than earning, i also wanna enjoy all sort of excitement including showing my talent. My self tell me that "you don't have to be afraid if you've done nothing wrong", "you don't have to be shy of popping out your skill that others dont have", "you have to have self-confident cuz you are who you are and that nobody can bring you down".



My journey to my 'night office' take me about 20 mins to reach. While sitting inside my bf's car waiting to be there, i just couldn't get off my nerve. Im gonna bring you down on the journey of how i get mad. There is this guy that drives the car that im in it, he keep on asking me same question (forgot his words already). At first i didn't really listen to him, but then things begin to rouse up. He got himself at the end of my patient and so did i scold him. Haiya..i dont mean to hurt his feeling.

Standing on stage isn't cool. It's like you're embarassing your own self. LOL. My first set of performing makes me feel nervous and a bit shy. Thats why, when i wanna scream on top of my lungs, my voice may vibrating. When it happen, one of the band boy ask me, why i didn't do the best of what i have? Yaikss..how can that be? Dont know a thing!

Last night i met a few cute & handsome guy. They were all like, "ooww..hello? am i dreaming of meeting this lady??" haha..LOL..Im just an ordinary person who loves bumping and have a really nice chat with anyone. I dont care their reputation actually but to be frank, i do need to calculate their self attitude-point for i am a picky person if it was about getting contact number. If the person im gonna have dialogue with is kind of unreasonable person, then i'll just directly ignore them. Wasting precious time only. hoho..

Hangoverr...

Im totally exhausted..yucks last nite was damn **** !! But then still i love the excitement all nite long. Well, for my very story..i met this guy which happens to look cute in my eye. He's the type of whom i've been looking for at the unsaid ceremony just 19 hours ago. Started with a short dialog and a friend of mine (dont have to mention his name). When we bumped into each other, I thought that he was different than the outsider that i use to hanging out with. Which make no sense at all. That's so pathetic of him after i discovered that he was actually a real asshole for women. Get to know hot chicks and then later fuck them for sensual sensation. Weeww..too bad for a face like him. Anyway, have to get rid of my idiot instinct of getting to know guys.

The only thing i've been wondered of that night was all about ''how's my look? Do i look great? Anyone to bring me down on my knee?" LOL. I shouldn't act that way as i knew it would be a good point of pointing out rude manner to me. Normally, i hate a circumstance of being low or should i say being down-&-out. Cuz it's just soo not me. But luckily nothing bad happened. Great!

To tell something that is real and fucking true will be a problem but it surely wouldn't stop me from doin' something that's good. Aiseh! When i first come to that ceremony, i know that everything's gonna be all fine (which's actually correct cuz i want it that way). Walk towards the particular place and then have a slow & steady chat with the others. Like usuall, tiny laugh.. finally, starting to get very chaos. At the end, drunk! That's the word..aiya..and this morning hangover..and then this night performing at Raz Ma Taz again. Too unhealthy! But then, it's like a lightning flash to know a cute guy is hoping to chat with me even i've got too many reason to kick his face off my eye. Haha..

Working hour

Ahaha...sitting while doin job is exactly sound 'anak arau' (philiphine's word). Silly thing is my colleagues does not know what the hell is happenin here at my table except for a guy who's i'd invited to my blog..aiyaa..mimieluv niii...apa lagi yg sa mau kasi insert?? wala na idea.. hehe i love my space at office, im whole again!! it's what i meant for life..arghh palui jg ni..emm dpan sa skg ada pilak tgk2..walawehh...(jaat tul sa ni aa)

Little Sun Shine

Well...life is actually or perhaps feel a lot annoying more than everyone else can imagine. In my blog, you'll experince my life cycle as we go through this blogger as far as it can bring us to.

First of every all, I wanna drag each of you to the page where it was soo mine. Lets get it started by taking part in monkey business which yet might smack my head down for a little while (wonder land bebeh)

Errkk..im out of topic liao.

Anyway....I continue it later. babai..