You know what, i realize that life is like a jabberwocky. You create something to live on but at the end you find out that it is actually meaningless. After all, it's you, yourself who want it to be like that.
I have no guts to point something unbeneficial to anybody or me. But just to be frank, my freedome have never been good like these current particular days. Hehe..Lol..
Im going to end up things that terribly burdening my freedom. It's so call my "NIGHT JOB" that im talking about. Not to confuse the outside readers. (killin yourself for teriyaki and turn into sort of an a** h**e,but doesn't know what the hell that teriyaki thing is. Aiseh!)
I know I'll maybe going to miss this situation of having a really shitty tiredness ever. I suppose working day and night shall make me act out of my mind; mumbling idiot topic, getting more sleepy, less talk like i've done never before, become a truly ass hole infront of my sweetest friends and even more worst doin less chit chating with people around! Wow..moron. This isn't the way i do before taking part in the very cognition of vampire's life (clubbers is what im trying to say).
Have you guys ever heard of this song; "Angels" by WAX POETIC? Listening to this kind off soul song makes me feel blues..Yucks! Hate it so much. I feel like im in the 50's - 80's life. Uhuu..im so not into that dude. Anyway the big BBUUTT (BUT) here is, if I ever feel sad or isolate, suprisingly without hesitation, im kind off putting myself together with that in-blues rythm. Secretly (not telling the truth) it makes me feel like whole again (just joking and try to make it happen which will never be real).
So for the very end of this post, I would like to thanks myself for making me proud. Nevertheless,I hope n wish myself a very 100000000x ALL THE BEST & MAY GOD BLESS YOU. Life isn't bad at all. Only need a simplifier and some of love flavour, then it'll be better! MUAXX!! Cupp.. ;')
Monday, April 14, 2008
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
RaZ mA taZ
I wake up at 9pm, straightly go to take my bath. It's so terifying whenever the water that i pour started to run down my body. weew..what a shit! Just after i finish cleaning my entire body, i retransform to a clubbing girl for my so call night job. Please do not misunderstood me. It's not that im doing bitchy stuff, but to earn saving so that i can support myself. If somebody asking me whether i am really into this kind of work field, i would say that they're wrong. Actually, other than earning, i also wanna enjoy all sort of excitement including showing my talent. My self tell me that "you don't have to be afraid if you've done nothing wrong", "you don't have to be shy of popping out your skill that others dont have", "you have to have self-confident cuz you are who you are and that nobody can bring you down".
My journey to my 'night office' take me about 20 mins to reach. While sitting inside my bf's car waiting to be there, i just couldn't get off my nerve. Im gonna bring you down on the journey of how i get mad. There is this guy that drives the car that im in it, he keep on asking me same question (forgot his words already). At first i didn't really listen to him, but then things begin to rouse up. He got himself at the end of my patient and so did i scold him. Haiya..i dont mean to hurt his feeling.
Standing on stage isn't cool. It's like you're embarassing your own self. LOL. My first set of performing makes me feel nervous and a bit shy. Thats why, when i wanna scream on top of my lungs, my voice may vibrating. When it happen, one of the band boy ask me, why i didn't do the best of what i have? Yaikss..how can that be? Dont know a thing!
Last night i met a few cute & handsome guy. They were all like, "ooww..hello? am i dreaming of meeting this lady??" haha..LOL..Im just an ordinary person who loves bumping and have a really nice chat with anyone. I dont care their reputation actually but to be frank, i do need to calculate their self attitude-point for i am a picky person if it was about getting contact number. If the person im gonna have dialogue with is kind of unreasonable person, then i'll just directly ignore them. Wasting precious time only. hoho..
My journey to my 'night office' take me about 20 mins to reach. While sitting inside my bf's car waiting to be there, i just couldn't get off my nerve. Im gonna bring you down on the journey of how i get mad. There is this guy that drives the car that im in it, he keep on asking me same question (forgot his words already). At first i didn't really listen to him, but then things begin to rouse up. He got himself at the end of my patient and so did i scold him. Haiya..i dont mean to hurt his feeling.
Standing on stage isn't cool. It's like you're embarassing your own self. LOL. My first set of performing makes me feel nervous and a bit shy. Thats why, when i wanna scream on top of my lungs, my voice may vibrating. When it happen, one of the band boy ask me, why i didn't do the best of what i have? Yaikss..how can that be? Dont know a thing!
Last night i met a few cute & handsome guy. They were all like, "ooww..hello? am i dreaming of meeting this lady??" haha..LOL..Im just an ordinary person who loves bumping and have a really nice chat with anyone. I dont care their reputation actually but to be frank, i do need to calculate their self attitude-point for i am a picky person if it was about getting contact number. If the person im gonna have dialogue with is kind of unreasonable person, then i'll just directly ignore them. Wasting precious time only. hoho..
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